🕯️ Start here: welcome to Rebellion Just By Existing

Welcome to Rebellion Just By Existing, where unfiltered witness feels like a salve, a full exhale, and sometimes an ice bath.

If you’ve ever been called “too much” or “not enough,”
or no matter how much you achieved it still didn’t feel like enough,
you will find words for things in your own life that you didn’t have language for,
and you’ll read words that sink into your bones and remember forever.

Because “just existing” is the rebellion. Where you get to just… be.

Here’s what’s inside this post:

What’s Inside
How To Read
Posts to Start With
Comments from Readers

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What’s Inside

Free tier:
Every post from a section called Resonance in the Liminal Space is public, and you’ll get emails about this. I write about business, money, identity, grief, relationships, autonomy. I hope you feel seen and energized from these.

Paid tier:
Rebellion Just By Existing is the wild, rollercoaster ride that is the in-real-time story of a “life detour,” the can’t-look-away posts that readers binge. If you love memoirs, enjoy wry humor, or want to see the inner state of how someone with 15+ years of mindset & energy work experience handles the unfathomable when everything is stripped away except for existing, you’ll be in good company.

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How to read

For the Resonance posts, just subscribe and sit back and those will be emailed to you.

For the Rebellion Just By Existing posts, come onto the app or website, start with Post 1, and work your way up chronologically. Take your time or binge, as you like.

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Rebellion Just By Existing is a blog about being alive — messy, imperfect, adventurous, and human in a world that often prefers AI. And the innate rebellion of refusing to be dehumanized into a distant metaphor, symbol, or label.

I am not a victim. I am not a survivor. I am a witness.

Witness with me.

You will read micro-moments where, even though most of the readers have never had cancer or even known someone who had cancer, many say “oh, that explains exactly what I was feeling but didn’t know how to put it into words” or “I’ve had these experiences, even with different details.”

Some binge-read every single post for hours, like their favorite memoir.
Some read a bit a day, like their favorite poetry book.

Most people would wait until the “after.” After the lessons are learned. A tidy bow. After there’s a happy ending. Or not.

But I have seen and noticed so much. I observe the patterns, the absurdities, the beauty. And I write it down: part anthropologist, part lyricist.

If you’re reading, know that your presence is rare and sacred and your witnessing matters.

I’m sharing because it’s art, and I think that art is meant to be shared.

So please share. Share your reactions. Share how it’s impacted you. And please share the blog with those who might read it.

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Posts to start with:

• Rebellion just by existing (Post 1)

• You won’t hear me say “why me” (Post 5)

• DMV companions vs shine-chasers (Post 23)

• Plant medicine & a transmuter (Post 74)

• Who this is for and who it’s not for

After you read Post 1, you’ll know if you want to keep going. If you make it through all of the above, you’re ready to dive into the story.

And, when you’re ready, here’s a preview for reading more:
All posts, in order

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Comments from readers:

Here are some of my favorite reader comments so far:

“I stayed up til midnight reading all the paid articles. There’s so much profound wisdom in what you’ve written, I’m gonna go back, digest and share soon. And your dry, wry humor is 🤌🏼☺️🥰 it’s giving me life!!!”

“Love your sarcastic humor… painfully real and beautiful. It is dark but in the best way. You make the unbearable feel a little more human and it makes me laugh and ache at the same time.”

“I feel privileged to read a book that is in motion & actively being written.”

“It’s sooo good, and a “page turner” aka hitting the back button immediately to get to the next one. I’m one of the people you mentioned who binges your posts. But it’s like words & storytelling just pours out of you in the most interesting and put together ways.”

“I keep reading your posts, fast and slow. Wanting to read more and at the same time pacing myself, as to fully appreciate it, think.”

“Sometimes like a warm hug, and sometimes like a loving brutal honesty that you didn’t know you needed or wanted, but oh you so appreciate”

“Love your blog. I was trying to read it slowly and then ended up reading all of it yesterday lol”

“Well, when you sum it all up like that… holy shit 😳 And also holy shit to all of your posts. Girl. You can WRITE. Thank you for letting us in.”

Maybe I’ll add one of yours soon.

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Welcome to Rebellion Just By Existing.

Thank you for being a witness. With me.

Love,
River